I hid so well, for so long I believed I‘d already been found. — Dear society it may concern, I’ve blamed you for my mistakes for so long that facing the truth seemed pointless. Self-absorption only led me further from learning my lesson. Claiming I had to study this, work there or give up that. Putting all the blame for my choices somewhere I…

Wherever I go, there I am — Who the heck is Bridie Dillon? Ok, I can’t write this in the third person, I tried to be quirky, or is that pretentious? 🤷‍♀️ the verdict is still out. I’m finally taking this uncomfortable opportunity to explain my writing areas of expertise, it’s weird. Fingers crossed it doesn’t chase…

I’ll never be enough and that’s a load off — Here I was being given opposite instructions from two superiors at work. One getting increasingly shitty at me. At that moment I remember feeling not angry, not frustrated like you might expect but awash with boredom. Intensely bored with the whole situation. …

Healing with severe mental illness with someone who thinks I’m making excuses — It’s not like I’m depending on my partner to understand my mental stability. I mean, I don’t get it most days. I’m not asking him to read all the things, I gave up on that years ago. He says he doesn’t need to read ‘that stuff’. Why? because he wants…

I’m Tired of This Tempting Darkness — The words are somewhere. They aren’t coming out right. The looming emptiness is plugging the need to write… Everything feels like an enormous battle to stay awake. The darkness summons me to sleep for 13 hours and I still yawn. My writing consists of stream-of-consciousness rambles or brain dumps of…

Did you know anxiety can evolve? I didn’t — For as long as I can remember I’ve battled social anxiety and chronic depression (that’s another story). Until one day – It evaporated. Or so I thought… Something clicked deep in my neurotransmitters that there is no use being scared of people. …

Or How my oldest friend broke the spell of isolated self-improvement. — My future, like yours, is uncertain. Though we can at least try to point it in our chosen direction. I’ve done a hunk of soul searching lately and found I continually make crappy decisions. Realising the future I was pining after wasn’t what I wanted, was uncomfortable, to say the…

A mixed bag of words is what the psyche ordered — I’m an insatiable reader and studier. I haven’t always been, like a lot of people I was only taught to learn in one way and hadn’t discovered the “right” books yet. Or the things that I needed to learn. Do you know that feeling where you need to know something…

Did you know that when you left for external approval they never left you? — Bridie, Who are you? You are someone on the path you chose. What path is that, really? Do you even know? You are a mother and don’t really know what else. That’s cool, do you really have to be someone else right now? Can you try and just, you know…